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hello there staunch characters - it't been a while.
hope this blog post finds everyone well and settling into their year. i can't believe we're almost into the end of september. as i sit here sipping my coffee, munching on hummus & ciabatta with a little cup of soup, i'm glad that i have finally found some time to hash out my past month at school.
i'm a sophomore this year, and there are no amount of words to describe what my anticipation and excitement was to return for the fall semester this year. i came to terms this summer with the fact that i did not return home for myself, and that although i came back to school refreshed and ready to work, it is time to take my life into my own hands and start living for myself and no one else. that means rooting myself where ever my life takes me and for the time being, that place is Des Moines. all of this being said, returning to school made me realize how my extraverted nature seems to be dwindling. i find great amounts of comfort in being alone with my thoughts and with my work. this may just come with age and maturity, but its not a quality within myself that i'm used to or that i can, as of yet, fully justify. whatever the case, i seem to be getting through. busy. spreading myself to thin. the usual chaos.
now for an update on the actor. let me preface these stories by clarifying that i had set myself (as well as my family) up with the idea that i wouldn't get cast this semester. this is not to say that i didn't feel well prepared this time around (i ATTACKED), but mainly because some little voice in my head kept telling me that no director would think i was right for the shows we had this fall. that feeling allowed me to take the edge off of my typically, nerve-racked audition process and just perform. that feeling in and of itself, after the mayhem of last year, was exhilarating. i got through the whole audition weekend with an unfamiliar ease, that was soothing to know actually existed within me. i continue to tell people that it felt like a different person stepped in and did my audition and callbacks for me. fast-forward to tap class that following week. we all knew that the list had been posted, and there was an excited and nervous tension that existed throughout the entirety of class. disbelief, excitement and being scared shitless are the three out of millions of emotions that i was feeling, that can best describe seeing my name on the list. i will be playing Henrik Egerman in Stephen Sondheim's A Little Night Music. my first lead in a Drake main stage.
my one frustration with myself and with my life back at school would be that i can't seem to sync myself with my schedule. it still seems like i'm just floating through. just kinda free-falling through the weeks.
i want to give every day a purpose which is completely within my control and ability. i just get lost in my own and everyone else's high expectations. through it all, i attempt to remain grounded and happy, hoping that the medication is working.
xoxoxo
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