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well, my new glasses have come in and im absolutely in love.
im in an odd place right now, where i'm doing everything that i am supposed to be doing, and yet on a daily basis, i create worries for myself that are unnecessary and stress inducing. i am taking medication, i am working hard and i am allowing myself to get out and do the things that i want to do and yet, i still continue to create problems for myself. i am convinced now, that this is due to the plethora of time and thought i have had to myself this summer. i stated previously, that i am slowly becoming more introverted...but this is getting a little ridiculous. i was talking to a friend about this matter last night, on the way back from the casino. i told her that the thing that really gets me about all of this is that i am hindering myself from truly enjoying experiences because of my ability to overthink and overanalyze, which led me to conclude that i think that no person has or ever will have a mind quite as complex and ri-goddamn-diculous as mine. when there are things to worry about, i chew on it till theres no flavor left and when theres nothing to worry about, i create problems.
shit.
but really, things are great. i have been making money and will have enough to make it through another semester debt free...i hope and get to take a vacation to Walker next week and see my mama. so excited. and this is coming at a VERY necessary time.
missing the rush of a show. i have really realized this summer through a lot of introspect that i only feel really at home when on stage. cliche, i know. but really true for me.
hopefully linnea and i will get shooting soon. i've been accentuating the simple wardrobe lately and am excited to get behind the camera and do some experimenting. also, get to shoot a wedding for the first time in a year...very excited.
i leave you to day with a quote i found today that just bowled me over. my sentiments exactly about people and how they get to where they are through every kind of life experience.
ciao kids. xo
