holy shit.

check out this new you tube sensation.

she's phenomenal.

seriously, can't even get over it...

can't get enough:

groups i could just eat right now. what beauties...

this is SO my life. i have a stack about as tall as me of old VOGUES.

...very carrie bradshaw

watched west side story last night. she is a vision and so mysterious.

that final monologue at the close of the movie gets me every time.

don't you wish sometimes that your mornings were as glamorous as hers? greeting guests in your bra with a cigarette. disheveled hair and needing some nutrients...

i know i do. more later, kids.

peace out, doubt.

[she is my life's soundtrack lately. no mood she can't lift or stabilize.]

as of late, i find myself constantly plagued with self imposed doubt in about every facet of my life. and it is only through self analysis, with myself and the people that are closest to me, that i slowly come to terms with what a fucking psychotic person i am.

seriously.

it takes moments and moods like that, to put me in a place where something grandiose and wonderful, like having a Q&A session with Twyla Tharp, snaps me back into focus. this is a woman who has revolutionized dance and musical theater, and yet remains to be one of the most grounded, down to earth and self assured people, i have ever had the pleasure of listening to for an hour. it was so surreal. her passion was absolutely evident in every word that she uttered. and to get to live and breathe what you love every single day of your life was something that she said, 'shouldn't be settled for anything less than'.

although it may take me some time to reconnect with sometimes, that is what i'm doing here. it is an honor and a privilege to get the opportunity to study and go down the path that you want in life. and its a path that not as many people as you think are able to go down. people will often do what they think is practical or what would be acceptable instead of thinking of what they really want. how fortunate, then, are we. the people who know exactly what we want to do with our life and get to pursue it, in some form, every day.

its so interesting how stress and overwork, can blind you to the point of questioning what you have loved longer than anything else. the time is now. time to attack. time to live. time to experiment, experience and fail. its all part of the process. don't let yourself forget. your love is the one thing that keeps you hanging on, even if its only by a thread.